“Today is gonna be the day that their gonna throw it back to you. By now, you should have somehow realized what you’ve got to do.”
Since I was 13, I’ve had a basic idea of what I wanted to do. It was continually a dream of something significant, flashy, and important. A lawyer was generally my only passionate choice. Maybe it was because I was so young, and merely wanted to be it since Elle Woods [Legally Blonde] did it with such class. And because I had the tendency to never back down from an argument.
That’s not the case anymore. Here I am. Edging on 16, being advised that I need to decide what I’m going to do for the rest of my life.
My report card was appalling. I know what you’re thinking; it’s merely a grade 10 report card, no big deal. Well, my parent’s reaction was ultimately suggesting I drop out as I virtually failed.
Every time something like this has happened; I’ve blamed everybody but myself. Now, I realize – this is for real. Can’t blame anyone but myself. There are no second chances. Unless, of course, you’re actually considering repeating. I know what I want to do and I know who I want to be.
I want to live in New York. So at the break of dawn I can run and watch the sun rise. So that I can walk down the street and have thousands of people walking with me. I don’t want a quiet, subtle town. I want a big, bright, loud city. I want to work in a world-famous fashion magazine, and write articles with such precise and class that I’m renowned for them. I want to be respected and valued as a person, not only a employee. All I want is to have a wonderful life. I want to be respected and acknowledged in my career.
The last thing I have ever pictured being is a Noosa District Grade 10 high school dropout working at Woolworth’s till I’m 60. I can’t believe that the suggestion is even being considered. I’m better and smarter then that, aren’t I? Clearly I’m not. I don’t have the motivation. I don’t have the will power; I’m starting to believe what I’m being told. That I’m going to fail.
I need to prove not only those who doubt me wrong, but myself. I need inspiration and incentive. I need to know I can follow through with my ambitions and succeed.
Where do I even start?
December 11, 2006 at 9:20 am
hi its amber mcdonald
lol
i got this link from your bulliten
i didnt even notice it was you writing this
haha
i just read the top blog thing
and it was really good
like some professional jornal
your a great writer
and i know what you mean
im 16
jobless
boarderline grades
no plans
no money
and i want a great exciting wonderful future, life and career
but have no idea how to make it happen
i also read some of your other blogs too
interesting:)
December 14, 2006 at 9:46 pm
I know how you feel..my parents are exactly the same. I’m dreading them seeing this term’s report card.
Oo interesting book…was on my pile to read till I had to give it back since I had a lack of time.
January 24, 2007 at 11:00 am
You can be whoever you want to be. It says that as a man thinks in his heart, so he will be.
Know and think in your heart that you ARE someone. That you ARE worth it. That you CAN do all things.
The glory of man comes as you get past the impossibly odds, as you reach forward, keep on running no matter what people tell you or try to dictate to you.
I just watched an incredible movie… it was inspiring.. and a true story too. You should go out and watch it.. it was Pursuit of Happiness.
Such goodness.
September 19, 2007 at 6:36 pm
u speak so much truth, i was like this, i failed my first yr of 6 form (english), and had 2 drop out and go to collage, my family and friends acted as if it was the end of the world, but i can still get where i want to be i just need to work harder, so i hav been given a second chance but i know that this is the last chance ever so i have to make it happen, but your so right, i just cant find the motivation!!xxx